Decision

I am back on the blog after a long long time. And its been a while since I've really wanted to write anything. I don't know the reason, really. But I haven't really delved deep into wondering why that much.

Today was a good day. In a lot of ways, it was saying goodbyes to a lot of people, times and things. I went back to the Mission to a farewell party of a friend. She is headed to the Big Sur to a 2-month retreat and then back to Mississippi where she is from, originally. And maybe back to San Francisco and maybe not. She hasnt decided yet. In a lot of ways, that has exactly been my situation. For the last couple of months, I've been in a sort of a retreat. Hanging out with friends, enjoying times with them and thinking but not really deciding about things I am going to do. And I have decided now. So yes, I am going back to India. This already seems like my most revealing post ever.

And since we are being revealing..I am indebted to a lot of my friends here. Some more than others. And at some time in the future, hopefully I will be in a position to be as generous as they've been. To them or to others. On the 18th of this month is when I fly out of San Francisco. And while I am filled with apprehension of the challenges that lay ahead, I am also filled with hope and excitement for the possibilities. And while I will be away from my friends who've been family to me here, I hope my time with my parents and brother would compensate for that. And maybe new friends too.

Maybe in the long run, I'd want to come back. Maybe go somewhere else. Maybe go back to school. I feel differently everyday. And also, isnt it foolish to think you can plan the long run?

In other things, I will be going to Chicago this weekend. Before that, I'm going to a Def Leppard concert on Wednesday with friends. Both of which should be fun. And I'll try to squeeze in a trip to LA and Portland. Or to Big Sur, Yosemite, the Redwood National Park, etc. Hmm.. too little time?