Decision

I am back on the blog after a long long time. And its been a while since I've really wanted to write anything. I don't know the reason, really. But I haven't really delved deep into wondering why that much.

Today was a good day. In a lot of ways, it was saying goodbyes to a lot of people, times and things. I went back to the Mission to a farewell party of a friend. She is headed to the Big Sur to a 2-month retreat and then back to Mississippi where she is from, originally. And maybe back to San Francisco and maybe not. She hasnt decided yet. In a lot of ways, that has exactly been my situation. For the last couple of months, I've been in a sort of a retreat. Hanging out with friends, enjoying times with them and thinking but not really deciding about things I am going to do. And I have decided now. So yes, I am going back to India. This already seems like my most revealing post ever.

And since we are being revealing..I am indebted to a lot of my friends here. Some more than others. And at some time in the future, hopefully I will be in a position to be as generous as they've been. To them or to others. On the 18th of this month is when I fly out of San Francisco. And while I am filled with apprehension of the challenges that lay ahead, I am also filled with hope and excitement for the possibilities. And while I will be away from my friends who've been family to me here, I hope my time with my parents and brother would compensate for that. And maybe new friends too.

Maybe in the long run, I'd want to come back. Maybe go somewhere else. Maybe go back to school. I feel differently everyday. And also, isnt it foolish to think you can plan the long run?

In other things, I will be going to Chicago this weekend. Before that, I'm going to a Def Leppard concert on Wednesday with friends. Both of which should be fun. And I'll try to squeeze in a trip to LA and Portland. Or to Big Sur, Yosemite, the Redwood National Park, etc. Hmm.. too little time?

More moving

As I started typing out the title of this post, Firefox suggested "Ruby and iPhone App Developer" through auto-complete. Thats basically what I should've been upto lately but the slacker bug is very much alive and kicking.

I havent gone back home to SF in ten days. I kind of feel bad about it. But what the hell. I have to go to court this week to attend to a ticket that I got on Caltrain (rather unfairly, I think). And this is in San Mateo, so I might as well stay down in the Peninsula.

What I really need to worry about right now is what I'm going to do next month when my sublet runs out. As of now, I have some plans of traveling around California. And maybe crash here and there in between? But I dont yet know if it is feasible, practical or even reasonable. Ah! more moving around the corner, goddamitt..

Blogger's Blogk

I am back in California right now. I've been doing a lot of fun things lately but havent had the motivation or felt the urge to blog at all.
Just to continue my last post, I did manage to go to Boston and it was great. While I was there, I thought I was in love with the place. But now that I am back, I know I love the Bay Area more.
I got the keys to my new place this week but havent moved in yet. I am planning to do so today.
I cant think of anything more to write, so I am going to stop now. :)

Currently,

I'm in New York now watching Wimbledon.. I'm here visiting my brother who is going back home at the end of the month. Missing SF but NY is beautiful. I've wanted to go to Boston but it hasnt worked out. Yet.

Before coming here, I moved out of my apartment. It was a physically exhausting and mentally draining couple of days. Always thank god for friends but especially more so when you are moving. Really. I said goodbye to my wonderful housemate who is also leaving for Brazil at the end of the month for two years. Also said goodbyes to three other friends who are wandering off chasing their destinies/livelihoods/education. Hopefully things go well for everybody.

July 1st, I move into a new apartment for a month's sublet. One of the roommates has a cat..

Twitterish : Blogs I read

I've added the blogs I regularly read on the sidebar. Thanks, WallpaperWalk!

Night Life

3 am - Mission Street is like I've never seen it. Well, I'm lying. I have seen it this way many times. I said that only for dramatic effect.

The Italian SeaFood place across the street is packed - It is the only place open. The ATMs still have a line. A lone Latino cyclist is biking on the sidewalk.. returning from work, no doubt. The Muni-14 passes by and the sparks from the overhead electric cables are bright and loud. I can hear a couple arguing on the street, but I cant see them. The woman sounds especially drunk. I walk by stores, restaurants and other businesses with their shutters down and lights out, like in India.

Douglas, my connection is waiting for me. He says I am late. I told him that I lost track of time watching a TV show. It was true - only on Hulu, though. I shrug my shoulders - he was going to be conducting his business till 7am anyways, you know. He shows me my stash. I am satisfied.

As I carry it out nervously past a security guard dressed as a cop, I bump my knee hard into the divider between the In and Out doors. I yelp and groan but he laughs. He says that hasnt happened to him yet even though he is old, his eyesight is not so good and he is there everyday.

Well he never was carrying six moving boxes out of the Safeway store, was he?

Peering ahead

The weekend is over. I miss it already. Sunday, I'd gone to WaterWorld in Concord with friends which was super fun. Saturday was a lot of activity - volleyball, Union Street Festival, dinner with an old friend at a bus stop (we were supposed to go to an aerial dance show but the tickets sold out), music performances in a backyard, and then a lot of dancing with Poppy folk.

But I feel tired even thinking about the week ahead. I have a lot of cleaning, packing and moving to do. It takes me back to my last few months in Grad school. As now, even then I was entering a period of high uncertainty and with no clear plan or resources in hand or mind. And hopefully things'll resolve themselves out similarly. Reminds me that I should call R, who was awesome and with whom I stayed a few of those months back then. As with memories, the things I associate that time with are Boca Burgers, The Twilight Zone, Life of Pi, New Age Music and volleyball.

I wonder what I'll remember these days by.

PS: From my brother's blog - "This page is my database of interesting things I find while browsing. Occasionally I write things on my own. I think this could become a valuable resource in the long run in my quest to become omniscient which will make me omnipotent and then... I will open a chicken farm.. chicken will lay eggs...which will become chicken again and lay more eggs.. I will open a factory to make bread also, so that I can make billions by selling bread-omellette.."